Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Glimpsed...

In Summer of 04' I saw a woman on the bus, and her expression inspired this poem. Its one of the better ones I've written of late. I plan to submit it for publication somewhere sometime in the near future.



Glimpsed but Not Seen

I saw it there,
like a flash.
A vision
fixed in the flicker of a lightning strike.
The healing wound,
the deathlike stillness
of the features.
Masking a pain
both
fresh and ancient.
I experienced in an instant
Insight
disolving into
Recognition
giving way to
Resignation.
In a moment of
displaced time.
I felt a shock
of familiar, icy, horror.
Fresh fear
that melted into
acknowlegement.
And quiet,
compassionate,
perhaps- cowardly
denial.
I did not see it,
I no longer wear
that face.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Drugs and God on a Sabbath Bus Ride

A little thing I wrote a few years back. I'm still carless, so the bus IS my main mode of transportation, but thankfully, due to the kindness of Brother Scott and others like him, my little family now at least has consistant rides to and from church. Tax returns are right around the bend and I have decided that with not just one but two little ones, the time has come to bite the bullet and get a car even if its a clunker... I mean I keep saying I want to learn to repair cars--What better way to learn that on my own? ;-)
Hope you like the poem.

Drugs and God on a Sabbath Bus Ride

Arthur- “I found myself calling on God
to help me
make it through the weekend;
Which I don’t really like doing,
cause I don’t really believe.”
Joffery- “So did you make it?”
Arthur- “Yea I did!”
Joffery- “So did you say thank you?”

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Fwd: fw: f-------

A sweet friend of mine just forwarded me 'An Interesting Story', a bit about getting into heaven with your friend in this case a dog, something remarkably like a classic Twilight Zone episode. The message was simply, people forward you joke and what not, because they love you and were thinking of you, not for other nefarious reason. I wrote my friend back this response

"...As for the whole forwarded things... I have very strong feelings for all things forwarded. Ordinarily I avoid them like the plague, however, I did myself have an epiphany of sorts some time back about the nature of said messages. I DID realize that when I get something forwarded its because someone loved me, but did not take (or didn't feel that had), the time to actually write me a letter. I understand the thought, and the impulse and the warm fuzzy intentions behind it. I really and sincerely do. I ended up writing my beloved sister Lisa a three page letter, saying just that. That I knew it was because she loved me, not because she was too lazy...That being said, forwarded things do make me a little sad, because it means to me ..."I love you and was thinking of you, but not enough to actually spend just twenty seconds longer to type in eight little letters and THEN hit send..." Some of my best letters are simple, totally honest and heartfelt statements of fact that can at times be only a few words. Things like "I thought of you today-..." or "I miss you, will write later" or best of all "I love you."I understand that everyone today feels the time crunch, with our global economy and new fangled things like electric lights and the ability to communicate with millions of people all over the globe at any time of the day or night, from just about anywhere imaginable, its no wonder we don't feel like we have enough time to get all that we want, or all that we should done. I get that, I've got a nusing infant and a husband, and six year old whose struggling, an ex-husband whos comeing unglued and a family and church, and I'm tring to get back to school in a few weeks, and friends, and my hobbies and my writing and and ad infiniteum... Still, time because of the natuer of our lives and craziness, is the most precious gift anyone can give anyone else. Hesitate when you see the fwd: button, think about instead of JUST sending the message, just typing three words above so I know WHY you sent it, WHAT it meant to you, whatever, just be honest and risk your self emotionally, just a little. Take literally one half minute to show me you REALLY love me by writing me. In the end, although I GET forwards, I regret that I'm only a half way priority in someones life. Important enough to hit one button, but just not quite important enough to hit fifteen or twenty.

Saturday, January 21, 2006